Yesterday I wanted to talk to Adam on the phone. He said he would call me later but after a while I started feeling not-so-happy and decided that I didn't really feel like talking and sent him a text saying so. He called me then asking why I was so grumpy and etc. I denied being grumpy and we began talking for a while. After a few minutes he said he would call me back. I hung up and thought I had heard someone knocking on the front door. Charlie started barking at whoever was out there. My Mom goes to see who it is and I follow. I make it to about the middle of the stairs and my Mom stops me. She grabs my arms and tells me to sit down, so I do and ask "What the hell, Mom?". She opens the door and ADAM walks in!

I was SO shocked, guys! I was literally speechless and my face was all :O
After staring at him like that for like forever, I finally spit out "Why are you here?!"
With which he replies with "That's rude!"

After my parents left us alone he asked, "So you still grumpy?". I hit him >T

So, Apparently he is back for two weeks doing recruiting and then he will be off to Georgia.

I am super happy :D

In other news, Lily seems to be ill. Her body feels warm and she is coughing a little. Other than that she is fine. She barely slept at all last night, hopefully she sleeps tonight.
Tomorrow she has her speech evaluation at 1:00pm.
And, I am getting my tattoo finished (FINALLY) on Thursday.

I didn't get very much sleep last night and I haven't woken up yet.
I'm going to stop taking the vicodin it makes me body feel really tired but my mind goes crazy and when I do start to drift off it feels like I've stopped breathing or that i'm having my teeth taken out again.
This morning it hurt to talk, swallow, smile, etc. Feeding myself sucks because I keep forgetting I can't open my mouth very wide. My face also swelled up a bit, yesterday my face was barely swollen but I think my refusal of eating pudding and trying to eat hard foods is making it worse.

Lily is really happy today she's giggled a few times today, she's soo cute

I hate taking painkillers I can't focus on anything
It makes me nervous to hold Lily so I have to ask my parents to take her upstairs and etc

I feel dizzy and tired, I can't sleep because my brain will not shut up

waiting for the vicadin to start working

I didn't have time to eat breakfast this morning and I'm staaarving. I can't eat anything for like an hour T__T

My mom got me a cake yesterday but I didn't eat any.
I didn't want to because everybody except my brother was gone and I had ate a ton of candy.

So my birthdays tend to suck/something bad happens to me.

Yup, pretty much follows that trend.

I woke up from a dream that wasn't scary but it freaked me out.

I was barely around Lily today and it makes me really sad. I really wanted to play with her but she was all tired because it was almost 10:30.
I'm going to be one of those moms that cries when their kids start going to school or something.

Lily is such a good baby.
10:00pm is her bedtime
I put her in her sleeping potato sack, put her in her crib, give her a pacifier and, she's out in five minutes. She sleeps until 7:00 - 8:00, she's usually awake and babbling at 7:30. She babbles really quiet then progressively gets louder until I get up then gives me the biggest smile ever.
She's always happy and hardly ever fussy.

Even though it's easy to take care of her because she's on this constant schedule, it's still tiring. I've been sleeping better but every few days I'm awake for hours at night. I try to avoid taking naps during the day but sometimes I can't get myself to get up and go wash bottles, eat, or whatever. So I fall asleep and wake up with drool all over my hands because apparently when I take naps I sleep on my hands. Yuck. And I only drool when I'm exhausted so leave me alone>O

I tried giving her some rice cereal today and she ate some of it but most of it ended up on her face. It's kind of hard to tell if she's eating it because a lot of it dribbles out of her mouth. She's never ate from a spoon before so it's probably confusing for her. I don't know but I know she spat some of it out and ate some of it so maybe in a few days she'll eat more of it.

I still have to put prune juice in her formula, my pediatrician said that her constipation might go away but since she's getting started on solids her stools are going to be firmer. So prune juice for Lily until she starts eating fruits and vegetables.

Tomorrow Amy, Danny, and I are going to go see 'The Hills Have Eyes 2'.
I watched the first one last week and it made me sad because the mutant freaks stole a baby and killed it's mom. But the girl with ectrodactyly saved da baby. The movie was kind of stupid because i'm pretty sure a nuclear bomb wouldn't cause a rare genetic defect hm.. actually I don't know. Someone find out.

Speaking of movies~ I watched 'The Pursuit of Happyness' today and I liked it. Will Smith's son is so cute! I think I watch too many movies.

I tried to do a crossword puzzle today and one of the clues was "God of War" and instead of thinking of Ares, I thought of Kratos. I'm a loser. I suck at crossword puzzles.
I don't know why I decided that was important enough to be put here.
Danny keeps bugging me about God of War 2, i'm not made out of money >T He's such a leech!
I should get a book filled with crossword puzzles.

Birthday is in two days. woo.

Elise! I got your blanket this morning!
Thank you so much! I love the blanket in fact Lily is using it right now! I gave Elise-y bunny to Lily and she tried to shove it in her mouth so it's a bit drooly lol

p.s.
you have pretty handwriting~

I have a folder on my computer dedicated to AIM conversations. I should delete it, but I would have a massive anxiety attack if I did.
That's obsessive for ya.

I feel very sluggish. I shouldn't have ate all that crap food.

i feel fat and ugly

Yesterday my mom and I went to see 300 (i can't wait until it comes out on dvd~).
I also rented some movies that i'll probably spend today watching. I have the weekend off but I told this kid that i'd work for him tomorrow and now that I think about it I should have said no because I feel lazy. Oh well.

I woke up this morning with a red and itchy eye.

A few days ago I tried to get Lily to eat rice cereal but she spat it out so i'm going to try again in a week or two. She likes Sharkie a lot it's really cute, she's always smiling at him. If Lily didn't like him he'd be gone.

I had a dream about Lily growing teeth last night.

I had a nightmare this morning and it kept me awake for an hour or so. It was creepy and weird at the same time, but at least it wasn't another 'omg someone's trying to kidnap Lily' dream cause I always try to call 911 but I end up dialing 611 over and over again until I get it right and they laugh at me.
This morning I was cutting bread and cut my middle finger.
Lily scratched one of my fingers and yesterday I managed to get a paper cut across it so I have big fat X on the side of my finger.
Annnnnnd I burned my thumb yesterday.

My birthday is next week but I have this feeling that nothing is going to happen because I always get angry and depressed around my birthday.
I hate people.

i don't want to do anything today